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Billie Eilish Describes Her Body As Her “Ugly Friend”

By newadmin / Published on Wednesday, 22 Jun 2022 02:33 AM / No Comments / 21 views


TRIGGER WARNING: This article contains information about disordered eating which may be triggering to some.

While celebrities are typically the first to flex the latest unconventional beauty treatment or anti-aging regime (read: Kim Kardashian saying she’d eat fecal matter if it made her look young), we often forget that behind the veil they’re also dealing with a myriad of mental illnesses and anxieties of their own—Billie Eilish is one of them.

In a new interview, the 20 year old opens up about her estranged relationship with her body, who she refers to as her “ugly friend”, and how she’s found the confidence to love herself (sort of).

“I love that my body is mine and that it’s with me everywhere I go…I kind of think of my body as my friend, my ugly friend,” the musician told The Times.

Eilish revealed that her relationship with her body “has been a truly horrible, terrible thing since I was 11”.

As we know this was around the time that Eilish was exposed to graphic content like pornography, which she went on to describe as leaving her “traumatised” and dissatisfied with the way women’s bodies were depicted in the industry.
In an 2021 interview with Vanity Fair, Eilish also described an instance where she used diet pills at only 12 years old.

“”I remember taking a pill that told me that it would make me lose weight and it only made me pee the bed—when I was 12,” the star told the publication.

However, when Eilish turned 18, we saw her relationship with her body shift as she began to shed the layers of oversized clothing that she used as a safety blanket from critique and reclaim her own sexuality.

Yet, Eilish is still embroiled in this dichotomy between covering up and embracing her body.

“Wearing baggy clothes, nobody is attracted to me, I feel incredibly unloveable and unsexy and not beautiful, and people shame you for not being feminine enough,” she said.

“Then you wear something more revealing and they’re like, ‘You’re such a fat cow wh-re, I’m a sl-t and I’m a sell-out and I’m just like every other celebrity selling their bodies, and whoa! What the f-ck do you want?”

Reflecting on this shift in style, Eillish addresses her concern of swinging too hard in either direction. “I do have this worry that I felt so undesirable that I may have occasionally tried too hard to be desirable,” she added.

However, it seems that being vulnerable and honest about her own experiences is helping Eilish come to terms with how she views her body.

“I feel far more solid in who I am. I feel different now, like I’m desirable. I feel like I’m capable of being as feminine as I want to be and as masculine as I want.” We wouldn’t want her any other way.

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